Help me please (Long true story) :((((
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Story's like this, might sound melodramatic, but its the truth. No point lying anyhoo :/
Bare with me, it's long.
I had a crush over girl B when I was in sec 2. But one day I made her cry by being childish. =( Then girl C came over and talked to me.
I followed girl C after that and for the entire sec 2, I sat in front of her for every class. We grew closer after that.
So close that someone who had a crush on her asked me to help him. I said okay, but after a couple of weeks, I found myself falling for her too. I told him that I was sorry. He called girl C to tell her that night, she didn't believe. So I set my mind to tell her the next day. And I did.
It was during class, I said "C, I like you.". She giggled and walked back to her seat, I followed and kept pestering her why she didnt believe me. She just went to sleep -.-
But. I don't know...
There was this once, she was using her pencil and pen to draw cane marks on herself. And she did into onto me too, it was painful, and looking at her scars I told her not to hurt herself anymore, she asked me why I care so much about her. I just walked away, it kills me everyday that I didnt say that its because I love her.
During seconday sch, I always fought, then there was this once, I was angry with her because she wasn't talking to me so I went to the back to seat. She kept looking back, and I just walked away. She came to my pencil box and slipped a letter into it. She was saying sorry, it was 2 pages, and she asked me to go back to sit with her. Which I did.
There was this once, I told her that I didn't like someone in class, and she asked me "What about me? What about me?" and I just said, "I don't quite like you too, your attitude"
The next thing I knew, she went to her friend and cried in class. I don't know if it was me, but I went to her and said I was sorry. She kept saying it isn't me. I gave her the only chocolate I had and said sorry.
Everytime her bf came to her to talk, she'd go to sleep. But she'd always talk to me (cept when shes having her headaches).
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Towards the end of the year, the booted-captain of netball came to me and asked me about C's results, since she got promoted to captain and got into the top class. Turned out C's results were poorer than hers, and yet she got into the top class.
Anyhoo, thats besides the point, whilst I was calling her and her friends to find out about her results. Her friends (netballers) kept asking me who wanted to know. I told them. They never liked the booted-captain alot.
The next day, the disciplinary master cum netball coach called me over and scolded me and said I was just being used by the booted-captain, and he asked me to keep away from his netball girls, citing that I'm not a good influence.
I stormed back to class, it was the last day of sec 2. She came over and asked for my signature behind the class photo, I flipped the table in front and shouted at her to @#@($)( off and stormed out.
I was fuming, thinking that it might be her who had sabo-ed me.
Thing is, I dont think it was ever her. My anger clouded my judgement.
We proceded into sec 3 in different classes, I dropped into the last class, whilst she went into the top.
One day I had remedial in her class, so I rushed up just hoping that I'd have a glance of her. And I did! After I put my bag inside the class, I walked out, and there she was! Just outside the corridor, she said my name, and I swore she looked like she was going to cry any moment. But I just ran I don't know why, but I did.
We never spoke ever since then till sec 4 when it was her birthday, I bought her a lava lamp (god knows why). I didn't even say happy birthday, yet she came over to say thank you.
She left for australia when I was sec 5, after she graduated.
She comes back every year. And when she did this year, I called her during christmas to wish her a happy birthday, but it felt weird. I know it'd take time. I kept asking her out almost every month (she was here for 4 months). But everytime she said she was busy
But the week before she left, she messaged me saying that if I could organize something, then she'd meet. (Is she afraid of being with me alone?) Nobody could make it, it was the exams week.
The week after, I messaged her what time her flight was. And she said it isn't confirmed, and she asked why?
I told her I wanted to send her off.
But I guess she didn't want me there because she didn't reply for 2 days. So I decided not to make it difficult for her, I sms-ed her a lie that I wouldn't be able to make it since i'd be busy, asked her to take good care of herself there.
Its been 7 years since I fell for her. I still love her alot and I regret my every move that I've made. I know I'm terrible at this. I just wished I could make everything right.
Problem is, her friends aren't exactly my friends, and my friends aren't her friends either. We don't have the same clique. I know shes the one, if she wasn't, I wouldn't have waited.
I just want to hold her and tell her I've always loved her.
Each time I told her I love her after the first time, it was stupid, I was doing it over msn or through wordpad. I wrote letters. Bared my soul out, and each time, I told her that I'm not good enough. And the last time I told her, I asked her if she'd invite me to her wedding.
Each time, she'd say ok. And thats it.
I love her. I really do.
Somebody help, and thank you for your patience, you have no idea how much this means to me. -
im lost for words.
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u made a big mistake when she ask u "wad about me"
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x2Originally posted by OO_OO_OO:im lost for words.
7 years dat do show to a certain degree how deep ur feeling are fer her man... do u 2 still keep in touch? wads she doin now?
er.. well i'm not too sure to to help u but u have my best wishes man!!GOOD LUCK! -
from what i read, it seems she liked you too. but now maybe her feelings faded. and since she's studying overseas even harder.
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You are being contradictory yourself.
Make up your mind.
Good luck pal.
I told her I wanted to send her off.
But I guess she didn't want me there because she didn't reply for 2 days. So I decided not to make it difficult for her, I sms-ed her a lie that I wouldn't be able to make it since i'd be busy, asked her to take good care of herself there.
Its been 7 years since I fell for her. I still love her alot and I regret my every move that I've made. I know I'm terrible at this. I just wished I could make everything right.
I just want to hold her and tell her I've always loved her.
Each time I told her I love her after the first time, it was stupid, I was doing it over msn or through wordpad. I wrote letters. Bared my soul out, and each time, I told her that I'm not good enough. And the last time I told her, I asked her if she'd invite me to her wedding.
Each time, she'd say ok. And thats it.
I love her. I really do. -
Very touching.
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This just sounds to me like a hot and cold friendship.
You 2 probably shared something more than a normal friendship, but to me thats it. It lacked the spark that was needed to ignite the passion of it.
I am not her but what she seems to be doing is that she knows your a very close friend and prolly something more, but she just dosent want you to get the wrong idea.
Thats why she dosent want you to be alone with her.
Well, looking back, its one beautiful memory. And it has probably dragged on for too long to o anything. What you do now may not even change the outcome. Take it in your stride and look back with a smile i guess.
I know ur friendship means alot to her. just dont screw up even more.
Honestly if i were you, i would give up already. no point clinging on for so long. sometimes u just missed the chance and u cant recover. hur hur.
All the best. There are still many out there. -
hey... if you ever ever get a chance to meet up with her again... tell her everything you wrote here. As in meet up with her face to face and tell her ok?
You two may end up together or may not... but at least she'll know how much you appreciate her and maybe you'll get to hear her side of your story? Whatever happens in future, sometimes, is not as important as that you two shared a very nice memory together.
And in the meantime, live your live to the fullest, be everything you want to be... maybe one day, you can share the very best of yourself to the one you love! -
From what I understand, she doesn't seems much that interested in you anymore....?Originally posted by fwy87:Story's like this, might sound melodramatic, but its the truth. No point lying anyhoo :/
Bare with me, it's long.
I had a crush over girl B when I was in sec 2. But one day I made her cry by being childish. =( Then girl C came over and talked to me.
I followed girl C after that and for the entire sec 2, I sat in front of her for every class. We grew closer after that.
So close that someone who had a crush on her asked me to help him. I said okay, but after a couple of weeks, I found myself falling for her too. I told him that I was sorry. He called girl C to tell her that night, she didn't believe. So I set my mind to tell her the next day. And I did.
It was during class, I said "C, I like you.". She giggled and walked back to her seat, I followed and kept pestering her why she didnt believe me. She just went to sleep -.-
But. I don't know...
There was this once, she was using her pencil and pen to draw cane marks on herself. And she did into onto me too, it was painful, and looking at her scars I told her not to hurt herself anymore, she asked me why I care so much about her. I just walked away, it kills me everyday that I didnt say that its because I love her.
During seconday sch, I always fought, then there was this once, I was angry with her because she wasn't talking to me so I went to the back to seat. She kept looking back, and I just walked away. She came to my pencil box and slipped a letter into it. She was saying sorry, it was 2 pages, and she asked me to go back to sit with her. Which I did.
There was this once, I told her that I didn't like someone in class, and she asked me "What about me? What about me?" and I just said, "I don't quite like you too, your attitude"
The next thing I knew, she went to her friend and cried in class. I don't know if it was me, but I went to her and said I was sorry. She kept saying it isn't me. I gave her the only chocolate I had and said sorry.
Everytime her bf came to her to talk, she'd go to sleep. But she'd always talk to me (cept when shes having her headaches).
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Towards the end of the year, the booted-captain of netball came to me and asked me about C's results, since she got promoted to captain and got into the top class. Turned out C's results were poorer than hers, and yet she got into the top class.
Anyhoo, thats besides the point, whilst I was calling her and her friends to find out about her results. Her friends (netballers) kept asking me who wanted to know. I told them. They never liked the booted-captain alot.
The next day, the disciplinary master cum netball coach called me over and scolded me and said I was just being used by the booted-captain, and he asked me to keep away from his netball girls, citing that I'm not a good influence.
I stormed back to class, it was the last day of sec 2. She came over and asked for my signature behind the class photo, I flipped the table in front and shouted at her to @#@($)( off and stormed out.
I was fuming, thinking that it might be her who had sabo-ed me.
Thing is, I dont think it was ever her. My anger clouded my judgement.
We proceded into sec 3 in different classes, I dropped into the last class, whilst she went into the top.
One day I had remedial in her class, so I rushed up just hoping that I'd have a glance of her. And I did! After I put my bag inside the class, I walked out, and there she was! Just outside the corridor, she said my name, and I swore she looked like she was going to cry any moment. But I just ran I don't know why, but I did.
We never spoke ever since then till sec 4 when it was her birthday, I bought her a lava lamp (god knows why). I didn't even say happy birthday, yet she came over to say thank you.
She left for australia when I was sec 5, after she graduated.
She comes back every year. And when she did this year, I called her during christmas to wish her a happy birthday, but it felt weird. I know it'd take time. I kept asking her out almost every month (she was here for 4 months). But everytime she said she was busy
But the week before she left, she messaged me saying that if I could organize something, then she'd meet. (Is she afraid of being with me alone?) Nobody could make it, it was the exams week.
The week after, I messaged her what time her flight was. And she said it isn't confirmed, and she asked why?
I told her I wanted to send her off.
But I guess she didn't want me there because she didn't reply for 2 days. So I decided not to make it difficult for her, I sms-ed her a lie that I wouldn't be able to make it since i'd be busy, asked her to take good care of herself there.
Its been 7 years since I fell for her. I still love her alot and I regret my every move that I've made. I know I'm terrible at this. I just wished I could make everything right.
Problem is, her friends aren't exactly my friends, and my friends aren't her friends either. We don't have the same clique. I know shes the one, if she wasn't, I wouldn't have waited.
I just want to hold her and tell her I've always loved her.
Each time I told her I love her after the first time, it was stupid, I was doing it over msn or through wordpad. I wrote letters. Bared my soul out, and each time, I told her that I'm not good enough. And the last time I told her, I asked her if she'd invite me to her wedding.
Each time, she'd say ok. And thats it.
I love her. I really do.
Somebody help, and thank you for your patience, you have no idea how much this means to me. -
though i don't really know what to advise you. but i think it must have been heart wrenching for you especially for this year. when you asked her out but she didn't want to. and yes i agree when you get the chance to see her again, please do tell her how much you appreciated her and all. and thank her for the past.
i did enjoy reading the story though
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i only noe tat e one ting u wan to know.. is to know wad she feels/tinks abt e spec r/s both had.. and e future of both.. but its so hard to meet up, less likely for her to spell out everyting in her
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See lah, never study hard enuff...if u do ...maybe u at australia wif her now..
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there's this girl i liked for very long also..
5 years liao lo...
told her before but she said studies come first..
we were quite close before telling her that
after that i gg
after we left for sec sch we lost contact for like 2 years
suddenly one day she msg me say wan borrow basketball o.0
then even told me join her and go take neo print after that (and of course with her friends)
the few weeks after that were quite wonderful for me
untill disaster strikes;
my friend which is from the same pri sch as me use my phone send i love you to her
for the next 2 years she didn't reply me
ZzZzZ
am i that scary?
and the worst thing is...
when i asked for her o lvl result recently
she scored abit better than me only
i asked her why
she said:
"cause i didn't study much"
ZzZzZ
See line 3 and you'll know -
its not a story. its the truth! -.-
sigh, i really love her alot and i don't know..
there was this once, her friend told me that she said to her that she cant give me a chance because im not a christian. obviously bs and it hurts -
some christians do follow these kinda 'rules' even if you may find it bullshyt.Originally posted by fwy87:its not a story. its the truth! -.-
sigh, i really love her alot and i don't know..
there was this once, her friend told me that she said to her that she cant give me a chance because im not a christian. obviously bs and it hurts
okie maybe i shouldn't say story. but it was written in a pretty 'illustrative' way. i could somehow picture the scenarios in my mind
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i wonder what happened to girl B.
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erm, she is long forgotten and obviously not the main character... so we will do without herOriginally posted by wadaxi:i wonder what happened to girl B. -
7 yrs and counting.. thats a pretty long wait..
i think you should move on with your life now.. she told her friend that she couldn;t give you a chance becuz you aren't a christian....get the hint? it would have being better if she said she would have given you a chance if you had being a christian...does both sentence sound the same? nope, the latter one sounds better doesn;t it?
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to some, they are lost for words.
After reading this. I went 'har'!?
Dramamama???
I suppose her liking towards you became disappointment or hatred.
Due to your guts/cowardice...
It's up to you to take this time to consider your future, how much you have learnt from this incident and what is the next course of action.
Cheers -
You have to decide whether you want to change the status quo.
Personally it looks to me the classic case of wanting the most what you could have but didnt, so cannot have - and enjoying your role in the "you could have it" so you dont want to change it into the confirmed you won't have it anymore.
Its been 7 years. She might have liked you then, but if I were her, I would have gotten tired of your endless declarations without action - and personally she sounds tired of it too.
I suggest you move on and give her and yourself a break.
Get to know more people and stop bugging her. -
My advice to you is :
Get a nice card.
Write something like : I know you are very angry at me and you have every right to be. However I just want to let you know that you are very precious in my heart. It is because of the fact that I treasure you very much, that is why I confessed this incident to you. I do not want to have any dark secrets hiding in our relationship and I especially do not want to hide anything from you. I would humbly like to ask for your forgiveness.
Handpost this card into her letterbox.
If you have some spare cash, u might like to scotch tape a small rose on it before posting.
Personally I do not think you have done wrong in confessing. I think you have started your relationship on the right foot. In a relationships, things are bound to happen as we humans are never perfect. It is how you handle the events that is important. I support your honesty and that is why I posted this advice for u.
All the best.
P.S. If your relationship is unable to survive this little incident, it may not be able to go through the storms of life next time you get married. -
i think u should leave her and forget abt her since she's overseas.
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" Ni Shuo Wo Be Jiao Xiang Nii De Hao Peng You~
Zi Shi Bu Xiao Xin Yong Bao Zhe~
Ni Dao Qian, Ni Nan Guo
Yu Shi Wo Gei Nii Siao Rong
Shui Zai Hu Wo De Xin Hai Hui Bu Hui Ji Mo~ "
[Luo Zhi Xiang]- Hao Peng You
dunno y after i read tis story...tis song immediately came to my mind
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Ya Believe in urself u can do itOriginally posted by voidage:My advice to you is :
Get a nice card.
Write something like : I know you are very angry at me and you have every right to be. However I just want to let you know that you are very precious in my heart. It is because of the fact that I treasure you very much, that is why I confessed this incident to you. I do not want to have any dark secrets hiding in our relationship and I especially do not want to hide anything from you. I would humbly like to ask for your forgiveness.
Handpost this card into her letterbox.
If you have some spare cash, u might like to scotch tape a small rose on it before posting.
Personally I do not think you have done wrong in confessing. I think you have started your relationship on the right foot. In a relationships, things are bound to happen as we humans are never perfect. It is how you handle the events that is important. I support your honesty and that is why I posted this advice for u.
All the best.
P.S. If your relationship is unable to survive this little incident, it may not be able to go through the storms of life next time you get married.