Originally posted by airgrinder:
1. Why do you want to go to a local Uni? Why Uni in the first place?
2. Why do you want to work for the government? (nothing against them, just that you happen to say you wanna work for them)
3. Do you know what you want in future? CEO of a MNC? Police Chief? MP? Sales Manager of whatever sales industry?
4. On your question to the previous question, why do you wanna be that? For the money? Recognition? Because they look/sound/seems very stylo milo? Because your mum say so?
5. So if hypothetically, someone gives you $5million on the condition that you fail your poly, and unable to go uni. Would you do it?
I think whatever is troubling you is something deeper, not just about your grades. You'll need to address the root of "Feeling Depressed and Down in the Dumps..."
1. I want to go to a local uni, because my parents can't afford to send me overseas. Although when I ask/hinted to them, they said "Sure, no problem" but thing is, if I do go, they will have little/no savings left. Dad's in his mid-50s and Mum's in her late 40s, how much longer can they work? Besides that, I've got a younger brother who's 15 and I've to think of the amount of work my dad has to prepare to finance him through man. And why Uni in the first place? Lets be utterly frank, I feel that there's a larger beckoning to what I have done in my life. There's something bigger for me to be accomplish and this can't be done in our society why? Because here we need 2 things to make a statement that has both weight and credits, you need to be qualified (better if you are over-qualified) with degrees, masters, PhDs or you have to be wealthy, very wealthy. If not, nobody will pay attention to what you say no matter how proven it is. And also, its not the power/ego that I seek, but I'm seeking a way to also improve the living conditions of my family man. I don't wish to see my parents having to slog another 10-15years.
2.Why do I want to work for the government, its because I'm passionate about serving as an officer in the Armed Forces.And its career suicide for me if I sign-on with an average-Joe poly results and even after 10years max out at the rank of Captain or Major. By then, there's no point already. I wish to be there to be the movers and shakers, not just because the money is good. If the money there is good, I would say that money in the private sector would definitely be much much better.
3.Yes, I do know what I want in the future. I want to be a distinctively outstanding officer in the Armed Forces, I don't aim to be some BG or what, but at least a LTC or COL. would be sufficient,and venture into side businesses with 2 of my best friends.
4.I wanna be that because its my passion, not the money, the fame, recognition.If its for the fame, I would have chosen to be a movie star or singer, but sadly I look ugly. If its for the recognition, I would have chosen to be a scientist whom discovered the secrets to immortality or the cure for cancer/aids. Thus, my aim of being in the military is purely for the passion to serve my country and my people. Yes, I can be a specialist, but frankly, how much difference can a specialist make to the policies?
5.No, I won't do it..$5million to fail my poly and not go uni, though tempting, its still silly. Its not like the $5million to the last penny, but like the saying goes "Give a man a fish, he will not be hungry for a day. Teach a man a fish, he will never go hungry" And I'm a firm believer that whatever that you don't earn or fight for, its not yours.And you would treasure whatever you have achieved more then ever because you can see your blood and sweat in it. Though I occasionally bitch about the life I'm living, I'm thankful for being more able then those handicapped, broke and destitute people in the streets.And that I have the opportunity to make a difference,if I want to make a difference. Thus Frankly I won't do it even if its $50million. I also do not wish to be indebted to this person.