My friend said that i'm anti-social cos i don't foster deep bonding with them but on the other hand, im not there interested in their activites in the first place. I have other preferances but then, i haven't been purposely pursuing them yet. Different people, when come together creates different synergy and chemistry. I just found that i can't really click with them, though i have been hanging out with them for quite sometime. i'm always the wall-flower and in the shadow. These people do not really understand the real me. Lately, i have a fall-out with one of them and it is really bad. Common friends lament me and scolded me and i felt darn sad..Perhaps i haven't handle the things not very correctly but then i never intended to hurt my friend. I used to consider this friend as very good friend but now both parties feelings are hurt. I just don't feel the same anymore when i see her. Infact, seeing her remind me of there incident which was never intended to be and thus make me feel guilty.
After this incident, i have began to question the value of friendships and whether i should patch up with her. Is it my fault for laying myself in this "trouble" in the first place? Perhaps, when i know i can't really click with them, i shouldn't have hang out with them. I was thinking of being open-minded and tolerant of people who are different than me but i just found out that.. being different.. brings out alot of unfufilling unhappiness in me. It is a pity that i have to let her and some of the friends go but then im glad we aren't enemy. it is a pity cos i have spent energy, emotion, efforts and time on it. It is a pity things have to turn out there way and i'm sorry for causing it.
de_middle
dun get too emotional over it, we come across many people in this lifetime. people come in & out of your door but whoever leaves a footprint behind, learn to treasure them.
Xiao Jun
If they can't see e goodness in you now...who's to say they will see it in time to come? Right mix of friends offer support when you are down...not kick you in e groin
But then again...have you been treating them e same?
asdfzhao
what you can do now is entirely up to you now.
and whether you should patch up with your friends: do you feel comfortable with them? nobody here knows yourself better than you do.
how different are you? actually we are all different from one another, but the fact that 2 people can become friends, it means that they have something, no matter how insignificant, in common. i am sure about this one.
not going out does'nt mean anti social. not talking to people is.
hope this helps. being lonely is scary, i know.
popikachu
time heals...
i also always like this...
and my situation is almost the same as yours...
no one know the real me... ya i am same as you...
just one thing... good that you want to patch with him... let time bring you guys together again bah...