I am feeling very sucidal
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I am having alot of problems which I cannot solve in my life. I wanna end it. But there are so many things stopping me. Everytime when I am about to slash my wrist, I will think about my aged grandmother who has taken care of me for the last 20 years, my whole life and I will think about my mom who sacrificed so much for me at the expense of her own needs.However I believe that these thoughts will not overcome my sucidal act eventually.
Meanwhile, I am trying to get my hands on sleeping pills because I want to die in my sleep in my room. To me my bedroom is my asylum where I wanna dwell for eternity.
I love my family and my comfortable life but I hate myself and my problems. -
This is definitely a selfish thing to do. While u r relief from ur problems, ur love ones will be crying away for u, thinking of u, praying for u...Originally posted by paperdoll:I am having alot of problems which I cannot solve in my life. I wanna end it. But there are so many things stopping me. Everytime when I am about to slash my wrist, I will think about my aged grandmother who has taken care of me for the last 20 years, my whole life and I will think about my mom who sacrificed so much for me at the expense of her own needs.However I believe that these thoughts will not overcome my sucidal act eventually.
Meanwhile, I am trying to get my hands on sleeping pills because I want to die in my sleep in my room. To me my bedroom is my asylum where I wanna dwell for eternity.
I love my family and my comfortable life but I hate myself and my problems.
U shldn't avoid the problems u face, suicide is a coward act that only foolish pple think of. Everyone have the right to live, and shld live the fullest. Ur mother give birth to u hoping u can be a useful person, but I are going to take ur precious life away from her and the rest.
STOP THAT THINKING, FACE YOUR PROBLEMS BRAVELY.
Remember "things will straighten when the boat reach the jetty."
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hey.. look at the bright side.. every time after rain, they wl be sun shine.. dun becoz of any reasons. u wan to die.. there is no go reason for u to do it~!~!
tink abt ur mum, ur parents... i once wan to do it too.. but i dint. coz i cant just leave my parents like tat.. they spend so much time and effort raising mi up.. i wil break their heart if i do it... plus.. i wan to repay them.. my life is stil theirs.. i can onli take my own life. if i have repay the raisin debts. -
anyway its true that there is alot of problems tat we have to solve in life.. plus most of the probs is time consuming. and some cant even be solve.. but stil life goes on~!.. y other pple can make it.. u cant. u are very much fortuate then alot of pple liao..
got probs. share with some1.. solve the prob slowly and one by one.. its wil be sunshine even b4 u know it~!...
i believe there are friend whom u can toke to.. if not... ur family are most willing to lend u a listening ears.. worse come to worse... toke in forum lor!~..
when theres a will, theres a way..... dun give up... i give u my moral support!! -
Seems like you haven't told us your troubles.Originally posted by paperdoll:I am having alot of problems which I cannot solve in my life. I wanna end it. But there are so many things stopping me. Everytime when I am about to slash my wrist, I will think about my aged grandmother who has taken care of me for the last 20 years, my whole life and I will think about my mom who sacrificed so much for me at the expense of her own needs.However I believe that these thoughts will not overcome my sucidal act eventually.
Meanwhile, I am trying to get my hands on sleeping pills because I want to die in my sleep in my room. To me my bedroom is my asylum where I wanna dwell for eternity.
I love my family and my comfortable life but I hate myself and my problems.
Anyways don't try anything foolish,those mishaps could be washed away at ease,if you'd
think on the bright side.Everyone will have
problems,not only you.Think about this.
I'm troubled lately also,some bitch kept sms
"I love you" these days,and |'m tired of diverting.What the hell...?!Good luck to you,
but just don't try suicidal means,it's not a
good solution.
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Suicide is not a coward/foolish act. Its another form of happiness. Its your life, so, do just whatever you want to but THINK first. You may just regret it at the last second.
Whatever you live, you'll find again, but what you throw away you never get back. I know you've lost things, but don't yet take the step of throwing them away... -
life is a flower,and we whistle down the wind,carry on smiling,and the world'll smile wtih you!
Good lucky for you,cheer up!!! -
Aiyo dont be stupid lar.life is so precius..i gt a fren aslo commit suicide..becos of her boyfren.she jump down frm XX floor and died..then her family , frens all cried..we all v sad that she think of ending tis way. she had the look, gt money, gt gd frens, gd relative who cares about her.but she just cant take it..maybe is really hard and torturing...but u can tell your frens your troubles...if u no frens, you can tell me...i willing to share and listen...n give u advice..pls pls ..one more time..one last time calling you...dn commit suicide ok..it wont solve anything..AND commit suicide is a scene..when u died...you will be punished......there are really alot of things to do in life....many interesting things...life is v important...arbo y u see so many people struggling in hospital..they are so strong. so pls don have the weak mind. ..k ..anything u can email me and tok to me..
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dont be such a loser to think of committing suicide just to run away from yr problems.
to put things in perspective, there are only 2 really important events in your life; the 1st being yr birth and the 2nd being yr death; everything else is secondary: wealth, success and even marriage, are secondary.
it is pathetic of u to seek death just because of secondary problems and yr actions are an insult to those struggling to live on. i look down on those who end their own lives after their bfs/gfs dump them, as well as those who kill themselves over monetary problems.
if u follow their footsteps u are weaker than an insect, cos even an insect knows better than to deliberately take its own life.
wake up yr idea loser. dont spend yr time feeling sorry for yrself. get yr dad to give u a tight slap if u need it.
I can provide 2 absolute and extreme solutions to yr problem.
1. if its about money: declare yrself bankrupt and work from there.
2. if its abt relationships(which ever kind): become a monk/nun and detach yrself from the tiring world.
seek these possible alternatives before u try anything else.
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where's the buaya devil? he nv callu email him ah... wahahahaha
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ThEsE wOrDs YoU SaId lAsT NigHt
SeEmEd hArMlEsS LikE a ChILd'S SmILe
BuT dId YoU kNoW It StUng My EvErY nErVe?
ShAtTeReD mY PrIde,
LeFt mE ScArReD
i MiGhT nEvEr bE tHe sAmE aGaiN
fOr tHeSe wOrDs YoU sAiD
aRe fOrEvEr eNgrAvEd
LiKe A MemORy CuRtAin
DraWn aCrOSs ReaSons
bUt YOU--- ReMEmBeR
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Hi Paperdoll, all of us experience problems sometimes in life, you're not alone...when you're down, think of e ppl who mean e most to u--your mom, grandma and your close frenz...i'm sure you are deeply loved by them and u will really break their hearts if u choose to end your life now. Really really break their hearts u noe, this world's not perfect...life's full of ups and downs, many things happen that are beyond our control, somwtimes we can't change facts but I'm sure there will be an answer to all e suffering u r going thru...maybe you'll come out of it a stronger and more mature person. Keep going, don't give up now ok? Giving u support, Rainbow82
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Yo bigdeal,what's up with those buayas?Originally posted by bigdeal:where's the buaya devil? he nv callu email him ah... wahahahaha
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anyting there is solution...if u dun mind can share ur problem with us and mayb someone here got good solution for ur problem.Originally posted by paperdoll:I am having alot of problems which I cannot solve in my life. I wanna end it. But there are so many things stopping me. Everytime when I am about to slash my wrist, I will think about my aged grandmother who has taken care of me for the last 20 years, my whole life and I will think about my mom who sacrificed so much for me at the expense of her own needs.However I believe that these thoughts will not overcome my sucidal act eventually.
Meanwhile, I am trying to get my hands on sleeping pills because I want to die in my sleep in my room. To me my bedroom is my asylum where I wanna dwell for eternity.
I love my family and my comfortable life but I hate myself and my problems.
jus my sense of tought. -
"Look on the bright side, its suicide..."
Kurt Donald Cobain(1967-1994)
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Originally posted by sakaratulz:"Look on the bright side, its suicide..."
Kurt Donald Cobain(1967-1994)
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ThEsE wOrDs YoU SaId lAsT NigHt
SeEmEd hArMlEsS LikE a ChILd'S SmILe
BuT dId YoU kNoW It StUng My EvErY nErVe?
ShAtTeReD mY PrIde,
LeFt mE ScArReD
i MiGhT nEvEr bE tHe sAmE aGaiN
fOr tHeSe wOrDs YoU sAiD
aRe fOrEvEr eNgrAvEd
LiKe A MemORy CuRtAin
DraWn aCrOSs ReaSons
bUt YOU--- ReMEmBeR
I WoUld SuRviVe -
Since you're thinking of throwing your life away.... Do you mind if I just borrow a fraction of your TIME to see if I can prove you wrong?Originally posted by paperdoll:I am having alot of problems which I cannot solve in my life. I wanna end it. But there are so many things stopping me. Everytime when I am about to slash my wrist, I will think about my aged grandmother who has taken care of me for the last 20 years, my whole life and I will think about my mom who sacrificed so much for me at the expense of her own needs.However I believe that these thoughts will not overcome my sucidal act eventually.
Meanwhile, I am trying to get my hands on sleeping pills because I want to die in my sleep in my room. To me my bedroom is my asylum where I wanna dwell for eternity.
I love my family and my comfortable life but I hate myself and my problems.
"Life is an UNKNOWN. Just like rolling a dice under a mug. Don't be too eager to place your bet until you see what's hidden under it?"
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Sorry, was too BUSY with my own life to come in... Not to mention STRESSED UP...?Originally posted by bigdeal:where's the buaya devil? he nv callu email him ah... wahahahaha
But the LAST THING I would need is to die..? Hmm... Perhaps I should go for COFFEE instead...? 
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Sorry, was too BUSY with my own life to come in... Not to mention STRESSED UP...?Originally posted by Devil1976:[QUOTE]Originally posted by bigdeal:
[b]where's the buaya devil? he nv callu email him ah... wahahahaha But the LAST THING I would need is to die..? Hmm... Perhaps I should go for COFFEE instead...? [/B][/QUOTE]
u finally appear
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ThEsE wOrDs YoU SaId lAsT NigHt
SeEmEd hArMlEsS LikE a ChILd'S SmILe
BuT dId YoU kNoW It StUng My EvErY nErVe?
ShAtTeReD mY PrIde,
LeFt mE ScArReD
i MiGhT nEvEr bE tHe sAmE aGaiN
fOr tHeSe wOrDs YoU sAiD
aRe fOrEvEr eNgrAvEd
LiKe A MemORy CuRtAin
DraWn aCrOSs ReaSons
bUt YOU--- ReMEmBeR
I WoUld SuRviVe -
Don't joke lah... This is SERIOUS 'OFFICIAL BUSINESS'....?Originally posted by bigdeal:[QUOTE]Originally posted by bigdeal:
where's the buaya devil? he nv callu email him ah... wahahahaha
u finally appear -
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Don't joke lah... This is SERIOUS 'OFFICIAL BUSINESS'....?[/B][/QUOTE]
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ThEsE wOrDs YoU SaId lAsT NigHt
SeEmEd hArMlEsS LikE a ChILd'S SmILe
BuT dId YoU kNoW It StUng My EvErY nErVe?
ShAtTeReD mY PrIde,
LeFt mE ScArReD
i MiGhT nEvEr bE tHe sAmE aGaiN
fOr tHeSe wOrDs YoU sAiD
aRe fOrEvEr eNgrAvEd
LiKe A MemORy CuRtAin
DraWn aCrOSs ReaSons
bUt YOU--- ReMEmBeR
I WoUld SuRviVe -
Hey man, I believe sucidal thoughts do occur in a lot of people's mind. Be it just a flash of thought or a reckless decision... but it all boils down to one big question. Do you dare do it? Of course, a lot of other problems will come along once you leave this world. It is just that you are no longer there to face it or see it. Escaping? Yes, definitely.
I agree that it is hard to face your problems one by one when you have already given up on yourself... not to mention people around you. You have no one to turn to and no one is trustworthy anymore. Well... I won't ask for your age but I can reveal mine. Still 19, I guess it's kinda early to part from this place I call Earth.
Let's just diverse yourself in other things first. Occupy your mind and let your problems subside on their own. When they come back vaguely to you someday, you know that you have already gotten them over.
Of course... it may sound simple and easy than to do it. Well, give it a shot. Just try. Before you give others a chance, give yourself one.
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As long as I know how to love, I know I'll be alive. I've got all my life to live... I've got all my love to give... I will survive. I will survive!
I can't forgive; can't forget; can't give in... What Went Wrong? Cause you said this was right... You fucked up my life! -
One question. How did the guy feel about your friend's sucide?Originally posted by Fericia:Aiyo dont be stupid lar.life is so precius..i gt a fren aslo commit suicide..becos of her boyfren.she jump down frm XX floor and died..then her family , frens all cried..we all v sad that she think of ending tis way. she had the look, gt money, gt gd frens, gd relative who cares about her.but she just cant take it..maybe is really hard and torturing...but u can tell your frens your troubles...if u no frens, you can tell me...i willing to share and listen...n give u advice..pls pls ..one more time..one last time calling you...dn commit suicide ok..it wont solve anything..AND commit suicide is a scene..when u died...you will be punished......there are really alot of things to do in life....many interesting things...life is v important...arbo y u see so many people struggling in hospital..they are so strong. so pls don have the weak mind. ..k ..anything u can email me and tok to me..
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I can't forgive; can't forget; can't give in... What Went Wrong? Cause you said this was right... You fucked up my life!
As long as I know how to love, I know I'll be alive. I've got all my life to live... I've got all my love to give... I will survive. I will survive! -
......Originally posted by paperdoll:I am having alot of problems which I cannot solve in my life. I wanna end it. But there are so many things stopping me. Everytime when I am about to slash my wrist, I will think about my aged grandmother who has taken care of me for the last 20 years, my whole life and I will think about my mom who sacrificed so much for me at the expense of her own needs.However I believe that these thoughts will not overcome my sucidal act eventually.
Meanwhile, I am trying to get my hands on sleeping pills because I want to die in my sleep in my room. To me my bedroom is my asylum where I wanna dwell for eternity.
I love my family and my comfortable life but I hate myself and my problems. -
Paperdoll,
Though I have never posted in this thread, I have been following this on a everyday basis. I Dunno if you're still looking at it, but heyz.. look around you.. Look at the people around you.. Even on this forum.. Open your eyes and see that there are so many people who actually care about you. So many people that you don't know. So many people waiting for you to know them to share a part of your life with them. They are all there for you... Your family will be there for you too.. Your grandmother, your mother... all of them.. Even I will be here for you too even if you do not know me.
Isn't there warmth and happiness to know so many people out there who care for you?? why would people want to spend their time to read and get to know who you feel?? For fun?? no way manz. I believe for 95% of them, they want you to feel better.. They want to be there for you. To show you that there are things in this world worth living for. To show you that this is not a cruel world like you expect it to be... all it just take is a little opening up to us or even just one of us... it will make you life a lot lighter and make you days a lot brighter.
We offer our hands... We want to help.. We love to make you feel better.. and we love you. But if you don't even reply to us we will never know how are you feeling.. We don't even know you in person, we have to know something before we can start working in it. There are some trained counsellors in here. Even for me, I'm currently a learning psychologist. We care for you and we love you. We will be here for you.. and it's just for you to stretch out your hand for us to make a rainbow together, after the little black cloud has poured over you... We'll be here and I'll be here...
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