Crossroads
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Hmmm, hi there,
I wonder why I have decided to write a post like this in the forum, particularly, sitting down in front of my computer, putting my results into the thesis. Well, perhaps, I just think about where I am heading.
For the whole of last week, I got drunk almost everyday because I am bored of everything. I find that there is no faith in life and people.
So, what do we do when we are at crossroads? Where do we move from here? I really don't know, and I recalled from a song that I listen by Jeff Chang called "Duo Siang" (Thinking more), and it reflects totally what I have in mind. Finally, after a good booze last night, and I slept thru the whole night, I realized that it was morning again, and the sun is shining on my face.
I suddenly realized where to go from here, and not to be bored again. It's time to say no, and to say no, is the most important thing in my life, because to say no, means that I can finally come to terms with what I think is the cause to all these suffering and I can finally leave it all behind. So, since Death did not take my life in the past week, it would be much harder for him to do so, until later.
Because I can finally say no, it is time to come home soon......
Have a good day....
yours sincerely,
The Prodigal
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"I wish that I could have the love of a woman who could come to my life, lift me from sorrow, depression and loneliness, and push me to higher heights. However, love is not about finding someone to relieve you, but love is about you devoting your heart and soul to love that someone, even if you know that someone do not love you the way you do."
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At the crossroad, say no for a question that had to be answer? Its good you finally realise your sense of direction and soon will begin your new life again. Recently i just thought of something that has been bothering me for years and i had sorted it out too. It is not hard and usually yes and no is difference by a few letters only.
PEaCe| || || || ||
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®To The Maximum Limit Of My Life® -
hi proddy!
i'm happy to read that you've seen the light, i hope it's the light that you saw. sad to read that you're drowning your sorrows in drinks, i hope you'll be stronger in future. and do have faith in friends, some are just thoughtless but that doesn't mean that we don't care. anyway, i didn't email you yet because i decided to keep my current email address after all, should i change it in future, i'll keep you informed.
read that you finished your first year report and you should be starting on your travels soon, right? well, have a great time and please do keep in touch with me, either via private mail or in this forum. *hiaz* how can i let an easy-to-push-buttons guy like you get away from me? *evil smiles*
i'm really glad to read that you're feeling better although you still seem to have some anger in you, i hope time will heal everything.
yours truly,
colette -
not trying to be religious over here, but if i were u , my guiding light might be to seek help from God.
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wow.. u're in a real fix man.. beter take care of yaself man...
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i am a hardcore Metallic! No pain no Glory!!!!! -
So Proddy, no alcohol 4 u on Wednesday huh?? hehehe.....
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Well, Revelations,Originally posted by Revelations:So Proddy, no alcohol 4 u on Wednesday huh?? hehehe.....
I have been drinking bottles of orangina for the entire England vs Portugal for tonight. U can see how much water now I have to drink to hydrate myself again.
yours sincerely,
Prodigal
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"I wish that I could have the love of a woman who could come to my life, lift me from sorrow, depression and loneliness, and push me to higher heights. However, love is not about finding someone to relieve you, but love is about you devoting your heart and soul to love that someone, even if you know that someone do not love you the way you do."
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Proddy,
when i get into one of those moods i take a short trip. life doesn't seem so bad when you are on the road seeing things fleeting past you. the last time existentialist terror struck i packed my lowe alpine frontier 90 litre backpack and scooted off to wales for the week. it helps.
here's to better times...
cheerio -
Hi Terence,
Actually, I took a trip down to London to see my teacher for advice, before he come to see me this coming week. He flew over from Boston after seeing his daughter's graduation to see me here. I have a good talk with him, and he offered me a few words of wisdom. One of the most important things, which he said to me before I go home, is that "there are no wrong turnings, but only paths you walk which you thought at first that you were never meant to."
*let's cheers with our beers for old times and new times*
yours,
The Prodigal
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"I wish that I could have the love of a woman who could come to my life, lift me from sorrow, depression and loneliness, and push me to higher heights. However, love is not about finding someone to relieve you, but love is about you devoting your heart and soul to love that someone, even if you know that someone do not love you the way you do."
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Well I'll be damned... I thought this was a discussiona about the old Bon Jovi album... haa haa...
In anycase... it's never a good idea to attempt to drown one's sorrow in liquor. Firstly it cost a bomb.. secondly, it never really helps.. thirdy, being hardly sober you'll never sort out your thoughts.. fourthy, too much liquor is not good for the body. : )
Glad you sort out your thoughts. The next time you run into trouble, try confiding in a friend or go jogging... I find these two rather useful... especially the latter if done in the still of the night (1-2am?) the fresh air helps keep the mind clear...
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Jogging in the wee hours???
Not advisable for gals. Remember the Bukit Batok incident?