I do realise OCS is no joking matter. My brother is an officer now, he is only a diploma holder. I'm kinda under family pressure to achieve that too. Just went to drink alone at her void deck. Felt kinda away from this world for a while.

Thanks for all your replies, i kinda know what to do now.

The situation with her now,

She feels too tired to give me another chance for now. And feels that she should try it with X because X has been patiently waiting for her for almost 5 years now. He had always treated her well when they studied in poly.

Even though she recognises my hard work over the 4 months, I don't think i have a chance NOW. The only chance i have is to hope it fails between them, and hope that by then, I would have some success to show.

Probably right now i have no chance or choice. She is probably going to get together with X.

Bottomline, I know that chances are very slim now for me.  I can only work hard now and hope that one day i would have another chance. To show her that i can do it, I just messed up. To show that I could have done so so much better. I got that to my head, but cant get that into my heart.

I won't give up, I will work hard.

 

 

I forgot to ask. So where do i go now? NS or SIM

 

Ns offers me a way to grow up a little first, taking my mind off things, and allows me to no longer burden my family.

Sim gives me a chance to be officer in NS, earning alot more. But i would have to really work hard to get there. It will also give me a fighting chance with her. Which is really important to me...

Thanks guys.

It all started about 5 years ago, (2003) when I met her ( Lets call her K). I was in secondary school then. She was this average girl, not very pretty, not extremely good in her studies, but had a kind and naive personality. And i was a young childish boy, with nothing to show.

I started to like her, feeling things i never had, doing things i did not do for anyone. I kept walking her home, spending time with her in her studies. But kept it quiet in school. We talked about our dreams, future and everything actually. I found out how similar we were. We both wanted to be able to give our families a very very good life, want to travel the world. Want to be successful. We also wanted our first relationship to work out till the end. We were not finding just a girl/boy friend, but a future spouse( Hard to believe i know.. but its true, People at 15/16 dont think of such things so early)  She kinda had interest in me, but liked another guy more( Hereby known as X) X liked her too, but luckily he did not made any moves. I proceed to tell her i would mind if she tried it out with him. Almost giving up hope, I asked her to make me a promise, to meet in 2009 october 11th 8 oclock, in the kindergarden we went to. She agreed.

Long story short, the decision was made on prom night, me or X. I won.

We began our tough first year together, she being unable to cope with a boyfriend, started to neglect me, showing mroe interest in her friends, introducing me as a friend. ect ect. It was tough, but somehow, we made things work. And we began our sweet 2nd year. Things became so well, that i became complacent.

I was sure she wont leave me no matter what i do. I really thought that way. I focused more on my games, dance, everything else. I did pay attention to her, but it wasn't enough apparently. She began hinting that i should be more concerned. I was too blind to see how serious it was. Quarrels always end with me threatening breaking up. Knowing how much she loved me, i would always 'win'.

A few months before our eventual breakup, I kinda felt it. I started to treat her really nice. Trying to rekindle our flame that was once burning so strongly. It worked for a while, till i got complacent again. She said i was playing too much, not doing what i said i would do. Failing my modules one after another in poly. Not doing what i was dreaming about.

Then came my family problems. Our business wasn't doing so well. We sold our house and rented one due to bed debts and bad record.( we could not get a loan). My handphone line was cut off. Could not contact her for a month. (only my dad had a working phone line). We drifted even further. And i was still too childish to think, refusing to seriously look for work. Refusing to study hard.

We broke up on our 3rd anniversary. She cried very hard. And so did i. It was over.

I thought long and hard. Realising how much i loved her and how important she was. Her being there when i needed it. I wasn't there when she needed me. I hate myself. Letting such a good girl go. I finally went out looking for a job. And worked day and night. everyday. Made alot of good brothers and sisters on my job. Good natured hard working malaysians, Who were very supportive.

I then failed my diploma, failing the same module twice. Not due to work or love problems, just my own stupidity and stubborness. refusing to attend classes. Now i am too ashamed to face my family or her.

I continued life as usual and worked and worked. Thinking of ways to continue my studies. One of my malaysian brother offered to lend me money to study in SIM. I had just deffered from NS and could apply for a 15 month course in SIM. I hesitated, after all... I only knew him for 2-3 months. I planned it as my last resort.

I know i'm being selfish putting love over family. But i really wanted her back. I wanted to show her i could do the things we both dreamed of. Then i started talking to her again.

I found out how much i screwed up. She was really disappointed in me and din have much feeling already. She wanted to give X a chance. X has been waiting for her for 5 years. Treating her very nicely.( there were in the same class. did i forget to mention that?) And the promise to meet in 2009 was cancelled.

It was like stabbing me and kicking me in the groin. It pushed me to work even hard. Its been 4 months since our breakup and  i never once did sleep well. Sleeping is impossible now. And i have work almost everyday. Life is shit for me now.

Am i being selfish for wanted to keep her for myself? Asking her to give me another chance even though i know X could treat her better? Am i being selfish for being so down for a puppy love even though my family is not in very good fianancially? Hard to know what to do now.....

-Very much in pain and unable to sleep.

Hey guys, i recently bought a arcade joystick to play 2d fighting games at home. Its about $40 and the down button is spoilt only after 2 months.

Can anyone recommend me a better quality joystick besides ordering it from overseas?

I embrace the sadness inside me and go one corner and enjoy the feeling of being ALIVE!

On the serious note. I really do that.

Hey dude, If she is the shy type. You can confess without actually saying it right?

Just write a card? Give it to her with the present, this way she can both think about it long and hard. And she won't have to bear with pressure of being with you mar.

Good luck man. Love/Infatuation/crush whatever. It feels good.

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I dun think the thread starter is a wuss. I mean come on, gone are the days where every single man has to be able to fight. And what if a stronger person messes with you? Weapons are created to give an edge to the weaker ones anyway.

He must have a reason to want a weapon so bad to protect his girlfriend.. Ever thought of that people?

Aiya, when the relationship just started or is not yet stable, then this problem will arise. They ask this kind of questions because they are insecure.

When my girl asked me this for the first time, I just said "Sorry lo". After we got stable, even when i was caught ogling, she also wont say anything.

I am selling my wow account due to other commitments.

The account itself has 500g, 200g sellable gear, epic land mount, normal flying mount. It also comes with a level 3X shaman alt. This account is clean with no record whatsoever and is transferable to any server.

The priest is mostly specced for healing in both arenas and 25 man instances.
Has 3/3 primal mooncloth set and whitemend pants. Also has kara epics and 2/5 gladiator gear. Keyed for all heroic instances.

Professions: Mooncloth Tailoring(375) Enchanting (351) First aid (375)

Has whitemend pants and hood recipes and several rare enchanting recipes.

Starting bid: 250SGD.
A wow account with expansion will cost you $120. One month of play is about $24. Leveling to level 60 takes about a month and a half.
Leveling from there to 70 takes another month. ( Leveling time is based on the time me and 4 other friends took to level to 70)
700 in game gold is worth $80.

PM me for additional information.