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It has been a long time since I hit the forums. I usually do that only when I feel extreme loneliness.
Today, I found out my exbf has found a new girl. It has been almost half a year since we broke up, but I cant seem to get over him. We were together for more than two years. As I type this, tears cant stop flowing down my cheeks. Everyday I am kept busy with school and outing with friends. But everything I do seems to remind me of him. I still yearn for him to come back to me. I always thought there will be a chance, but now, I feel so crushed. So depressed.
I hate this feeling. I am scared.
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Few years back.
Two guys entered my life at the same time. We were all from the same secondary school and they knew each other. Lets call them X & Y.
X attended to me via sms/msn. We chatted almost everyday, talking about absolutely anything. He was the very caring type, When I fall sick, he was there, telling me to drink more water, rest well etcetc. Although we were very close, we never really talked in school. Y was somehow like X. We chatted via sms/msn everyday. He was there to cheer me up whenever I was sad and was happy whenever I was happy. The only thing that differs was that we went out a few times together. He paid for my expenses. Thus, we were often mistaken as being a couple. Rumours started to go around the school about me and Y being together when we were actually not. Slowly, X and I drifted. Occasionally, I would initiate a conversation with him on msn but we became, so stranger-like.
Frankly, I never thought of either one of them being my boyfriend one day. I thought friends would come and go. But one day, it eventually happened. One day, Y asked if I wanted to be his girlfriend. And I agreed.
The next two years was probably the best phase of my life. We were very loving in the beginning. Although there were up and downs, we were back to being lovey-dovey again. During this period of time, X found himself a gf and he practically disappeared from my life. Sadly, things took a turn between my boy and I and we eventually broke up three months ago. Its was over something that was difficult to be solved, not because I didnt love him anymore or vice versa. I still think of him everyday, and I really wish he will be back by my side one day.
Then recently, X came back into my life again. He, apparently has broken up with his gf. As we chatted on msn, I am reminded of the good old times we had.
Sometimes, I feel like god has sent this guy to help me get over my ex but sometimes, I feel otherwise. I dont know what to do. I am afraid I will fall in love with him because he 'helped' me out of this tough period. I feel like not contacting him anymore, but till today, he and my ex are still the only people I trust. I wish my ex can just return to me so everything will be settled.
I really need a breather from all these confusing matters.
Constructive comments please?
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