O, seems like you took the first step already.

Just message her, you got to follow up. Tell her you want to court her and ask her out for a date officially

To me, thats' the man way of "jioing" a lady.

Well, it's my birthday soon, tomorrow actually and I organised a gathering at changi chalet. I thought it would be very easy to invite ppl, come gather gather but all mostly I ask, I get half hearted response. Some don't even reply to sms at all. I ordered 180bucks worth of food from online but now,I feel like reducing the amount of food as not many ppl will turn up but I dont think the online food store will allow? I hope they would if not it will be a waste.

What the hell is wrong with people. One of my close friend said she had to go to church and therfore can't attend but before that,she promised that she will try very hard not to PS me again. But deep down inside I know,if anything that has anything to do with her church, she will choose it. Another matter is my classmates, not a very united class after all. Before that there was a mass email, asking for gathering and I thought perhaps it would be great,convinent for them to use the chalet but those people in charge of gathering the troops, they did so half heartedly while asking me to relax, chill den last min half done. If they cant gather do it well, dun promise me, dun ask me to relax in the first place, I hate tat kind of "bochap" attitude in people.

What is depressing is the image of me celebrating alone,crying myself to sleep on my birthday. I feel no love. :'(

I think this is god's punishment for me. When I was young, I was a bad kid, I stole money during primary sch. Haiz, but I never did that again and that guilt kept haunting me. This lonesome life and the tough path in my love life has got me contemplating what is there to live for?

Was thinking of having bbq chalet but scare this scare that. Like no people come, not enough food, not enough money.

I can solely afford the entire cost of having a bbq chalet despite not working currently but I don't know leh, Haiz..I think my wallet is taking over my thinking..

This headache has been with me for 9 consecutive days. Haiz,

Going back to hospital and this time i will ask them to ward me, do all the tests needed to get it cured. I read ther's no cure for migraine but if its migraine meaning nothing serious. Hope so.

Been feeling weak lately, yesterday night fever...I don't think I have my fitness back with me yet, sweat like damn alot just now when walk to and back from the MRT station.

Gota slowly build up fitness level i think.

Haiz, duno.

I turn to prayers.

No la, My handphone bill is cheap

I'm talking about whats the use of a expensive handphone when I'm so lonely :(

Health hasnt always been good. Had a bad headache and went to the GP.. Wasn't shock to seem my blood pressure 140/100 cause last year December already checked while having lesson and found out that my bp was high...

Damn scare something is seriously wrong with me. I love watching medical dramas like House and Grey's anatomy and omg, I keep thinking I have heart problem, I have tumor in my brain, I have this I have that. So afraid that all these bad things will happen all on me.

Health aside, the object of my affection is complicated. I can't seem to let go. I tried to date other ppl out and they responded positively but I just find it not right at all with them. I did things I never will imagine myself will do, I send flowers to girl A, confess to girl B, asked number from girl C but there is only girl X on my mind.

School isn't going well too. Ruined my gpa of 3 semester for girl X, too focus on her. NVM, its my fault for not being rational. got 2.9 gpa for the 3 semester and dun think I can go to university which is my dream and those medical dramas really inspire me at times to work hard and maybe miracle will happen and i'll get into med sch. Finally manage to join the gpa 3.00+ club today(result release for 4th semester) but den the stupid headache is disrupting my schedule for my final year project which is very demanding and my team is seriously understrength. A friend and I got to do a 5 person project though we are "assisted" by another full strength team doing similar project.

I find the days too short. everyday play DOTA, stare at ceiling, study abit for FYP since now holiday. Abit meaningless. And my expensive handphone $400+ doesnt ring often.

Damn, this year I'm turning 21 in a month time. and I feel so lost and helpless.

Sorry for ranting but I'm scared for myself :`(

I thought my thread dead.

Anyway, if anyone of you is still interested..

This weekend went on, was with her for two days.
Well i do not know the extend of her intention towards her ex-bf, every small action from her got my imagination running wild.
Yes, Im having a fucking hard time dealing with this matter.

So if anyone of you could help me direct my approach, please say so.
I'm planning to hold her hand soon and do a face to face confess. I must fight.
I must leave my comfort zone so my reward would be given in surprise.
I have come so far, there is simply no way for me to say throw down my towel.

Help

I feel like the bastard now.

No doubt, that bastard is taking path 1. I know he has been calling/smsing her, brainwashing/sweet talking. As I said earlier, that bastard has already started discrediting all the time I spent with her.

To do the same to him is very tempting. At times, I just lost my grip and blurted out bad comments abt him.

I think my best chance lies in path 2 but it takes alot of self-control, the ability to suppress the impulse of wanting to badmouth him that comes so sudden when Im with her.

Im even become so insecure that I want to tag along everywhere she goes because I'm afraid she will be meeting him. She confess she went to buy a KFC meal with him a while back, only 1 meeting but deep inside, Im wondering whether isit only 1?

She said its good that I ask cos then she can control herself.

Argh another thing is that sometimes I just want to tell her straight into her face to choose me or him but I know this would do us no good..

Sorry for not making any sense, organising the points..anything that comes to her, I cant make any sense.

No, I disagree.
This girl will definitely not return to her ex. 110% sure, circumstances involved I am sure that she will not return to him.
It just hurt so much to not get at least a chance to try.
I have been with her since the beginning, who was with her all these while when she was feeling down, angry, lost when she did badly in sch. Its ME, not that bastard who suddenly pops up.

I will not fucking give up so easily.

If she wants me out, she must be cruel to me. I won't stay under the masquerade of continue to be a v.gd friend to her any more longer.

I know her weakness, I can exploit them as well as the bastard did.

Oh how should I get started?
The more I think, the more farked I feel about this shit hole I am in.
Now she's telling me she treat that bastard as a friend and I asked him what happened to the hatred you felt earlier on? She replied its not good to hate forever...
Moreover, the bastard is always comparing her treatment towards me( We are very close) and him. I brought up to her face on and she said that the bastard always ask her why is she so good to me if Im just only a friend. Jealousy courses through me like sour milk whenever I caught her smsing him. Yuck, I hate that feeling so much sometimes I just want to burst out and ask her to end it with that bastard once and for all. I am so very tempted to keylog her chat accounts and peeking into her handphone just to know what the flying fark is going on. Its hurting me too much, so much secrets so much lies by the one I love yet when I asked she would be very elusive and I had to pry the answer out from her mouth.

BTW, any suggestions to kick start the courting process?

Wow pikachu, u are spot on. Im really the shy type.
This is true, Not a single part is made up.
Yes I admit I was tempted by the notion of "Love her, let her be sumone she is happy with" . After thinking through, I felt disgusted at this bullshit notion. I might have won her earlier if I hadnt act like a MOFO weakling.
And yes, she knows I like her but she kept telling me that she doesnt deserve someone as good as me that she is just one horrible bitch.
Any suggestions? I want to make her feel beautiful.

Hi, I appreciate all your replies and I would evaluate them.
Can't post my response right now, typing this behind her while she is doing her homework.Haha.
I want you all to know that I take this girl very seriously and also all your opinions.

It all started roughly 8 months ago when my then friend found out that her bf had cheated on her by going out with a girl from Thailand. She initiated the breakup and the bf confessed and thus their relationship ended.

Before that, me and her rushed down to some ulu place where the bastard is working, hoping to confront him but he was nowhere to be found. It was a heartbreaking sight to see her crying in the bus and my heart aches for her. I have always had special attention towards her despite knowing she had a BF, I kept the distance.

Months passed, we got closer together and I tried to spend as much time as possible with her, even skipping school and giving up my CCA to be with her. We eventually became very good friend and I am close to their family as well. Out of the blue, the ex BF came back and want to have a patch.

Well, she hated him and asked him to FXXX OFF but he is rather persistent. Leaving food outside her house, smsing her and want to meet her after her work or at her void deck. I was with her all along and the only correct thing I knew was for her to ignore him. He couldnt stop and it breaks my heart to see her crying again after so many months.

I met with that bastard and told him I would convince her to be just friend with him but he was still under the impression of him having a chance with her. At that point of time, the girl already knew my likings towards her.

Well, the scenario didnt get any better instead the bastard used what he is best at, emotional blackmail. He threatens to kill himself, off his phone and got me and her hurrying all over singapore to find him but at the end he would call her and say he didnt want to die or else he would not be able to see her again.

Den came the letters, reminding her of the fun times they spent together and such. And of cos, I was with her all these while when he did all these stuff.

The hatred in my friend's heart soon subsides and she begin to be less cruel towards him. I thought it was best that I no longer care and just play my part but things went underground pretty soon for them.

She accepted him as a friend but this bastard tells her he gets jealous whenever he sees me with her and my friend, not knowing how to say no would tell him that she is alone when she is with me. I was terribly upset by her lies. I was just right infront of her when she said that. I do not know why she would feel that way after the shit things he did to her. This bastard kept using things like " You never remember the things we did together.." to bait her back. Im so distressed that I have lost count of the times I cried.

Am I right to say that if she doesnt state her stand firm, that bastard would never move on and me and her would never get a chance just to even try? Fellow forumes, tell me what should I do? We are having lots of fun time together and everytime the sms tone came, I cant help but feel sour because 60% it would be the bastard smsing her. She is rather timid and we both agreed that she finds it very hard to be mean.

I asked my close friends for advice, one told me that I have to prove myself to be the better one for her. I am willing to do that, I have prepared letters, like what Noah did to Eillie in the film the notebook. I record down every single day of activities with her and plan to give it to her but her shadow of the ex mades me feel helpless.

I was thinking, since she cant say no directly to the bastard, I would contact him personally but I know I cant say "fxxx off and die".
I do not think that the bastard character would understand the meaning of loving her. I tried the approach of " If you love her, you wan her to be happy" earlier on but he doesnt seem to get it even to the extent of ME asking her to go back to him if she is happy but she doesnt want it.

I have given everything just for a hint of spark in this relationship and I know that we can make it.

okok *speechless*

im a Aries

haiz.so wats my next step..im having nitemares abt me failing my exams,anyone can tell me wat options do i have if i cant get pass n lvl n cant move on to sec 5?i realy dun wana go ITE…

3 years had passed ,and this year is her final year in this school.Though I did not talk to her for abt 2 years ,I still have feeling for her.Everytime I see her, I tried to avoid her but yet I wan her to notice me.Though we have not spoke to each other for a long time,we still do online chat like now,in MSN while im typin this.Few days back,I told her that i still have feeling for her but she said "dun,pls" , "we wun go any further" .I was devastated to hear that,she told me shes not worthy of me but i think tat she despise me.Im in a lower stream than her ,in other words,im "stupider than her.
can anyone here talk some sense into me.Im very confuse now.Im takin my result slip soon and I noe tat I will not made it to next year.and my life is so screwed up,no friends to talk to ,all day only computer.and now the one i love doesnt seem to give a damn abt me.haiz~

James clement Wi’tch series =D

1.Enough money to spend,lead a comfortable life.
2.The girl i like.
3.make a day last 48 hours instead of 24 hours..too short..

anyway,first post here

Use oxy vanishing formula ,quite cheap.apply after washing it with the oxy facial thing..(cant remember wat isit called)